On pain, not-so-teenage angst, and spiritual shit.
I woke up this morning to a pussy that was wetter than usual.
I would liken this particular brand of wetness to that of a terrestrial mollusc; it wasn't the usual dewey condensation that you'd discover when placing your hand on a disposable, sweating McDonald's iced coke.
I didn't know that I had been playing victim for as long as I had.
I thought that "shit just happened to me" and that my life was a culmination of unfortunate, albeit enriching, events.
Time and time again I have been given incredibly valuable resources- and I won't lie to you- I have had the privilege to turn the other cheek because I knew that others would pick up the slack for me.
“All of men’s problem’s stem from his inability to sit quietly in a room alone.” - Pascal
In rumination of this quote I find myself in a period of drastic solitude.
So much unexpected death has transpired for me in the form of my environment, romantic relationship, vocation, and synchronous shift to a more intentional business trajectory.
2017 has been a fucking whirlwind of emotional processing and painful triumph, to say the least.
I often harshly judge other online female entrepreneurs for their imperfections.
I have this ongoing dialogue in my mind that happens now and again when I find something strikingly offensive or lackluster about a female entrepreneur.
It’s as if I’ve manifested an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other to pull me in different directions with their counsel.
Throughout our healing journey we have the luxury to pick and choose our medicines based purely on intuitive wisdom and resonance.
And not every medicine is for everyone.
In my journey of truly learning to understand and embody this fact, it allows me to acknowledge that the healing path is wholly unique and perfect just as it is.
When we take care to acknowledge the cosmic will, we can open our hearts to receiving the correct perspective from the Creatrix of Divinity Herself.
Taking responsibility for our perceptions is a huge, huge, deal.
We have forgotten how to live Intuitively.
I woke up this morning and slept in until 10 AM.
Upon waking, I realized that I hadn’t even started my day, and yet I was already ashamed.
It felt like a slight pang in my gut.
The shame stemmed from the fact that I had woken up ‘late,’ and therefore I’d already wasted my golden hours to be productive.
I consciously pinpointed the shame and thought to myself, “What the fuck is this all about?”
Hey Cosmic Mama,
In my experience, trust has always been a fickle thing.
In relationships, I’ve been cheated on numerous times.
And I’ve also been the one to initiate the cheating.
Yep. In traversing both sides I ended up learning so much about myself and the way I perceive “trust.”
Hey Cosmic Mama,
It’s time to get really real about why you’re still dabbling in your business and haven’t made this damn thing work already.
What’s really holding you back from the success that you desire?
You might say that it’s money.
You might say that it’s time.
You might even say that it’s a lack of resources.
Well- fuck all of that.
Can we all STOP relying on our “tools” before we can allow ourselves to be successful?
Hey Cosmic Mama,
One of my FAVE quotes from life and biz guru Tony Robbins is this:
“It’s not about your resources, it’s about your resourcefulness.”
Yes to alla that.
I am an Intuitive Medium and Spiritual Teacher for Awakening Women who are called to follow an inward journey of self-expression and healing in order to live sovereign, magical lives that heal the planet.
I've spent 27 years of practice integrating wholeness and aspects of my shadow self to bring forth abilities that were transferred to me from far off in the cosmos.
I've shed so many layers of societal and patriarchal programming that prevented me from stepping into my divine, unified self.
At my lowest points, I've experienced debilitating anxiety, depression, and mental illness that nearly cost me my life.
It took the courage to be vulnerable, within a bleeding earthly plane that equates feminine subtlety to weakness, to help me transcend my fear of death.
I made the declaration to look my unworthiness straight in the eye with ferocity, and relinquished all consent to my agreements in the Maya Matrix.
With support from my celestial crew, I hold space for aspiring, committed spiritual teachers to claim their own worthiness and manifest the seed of divinity that is placed within.
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